The need to be small
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.” – Marianne Williamson
And I personally think that is because of the ego’s deep inner need to feel bad, sad, small, and not powerful. This is very sneaky on the egos part because ironically this move is very egotistical, full of itself, grandiose, and powerful. And as Brad Yates asks, “Who is that serving?” (Then there is Dr. Phil, “Does this work for you?”)
And fearing being too powerful appears to be in relation to others as well, “There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.” - Marianne Williamson. So, not being empowered is something I do for somebody else huh? Therefore we all walk around being small and powerless. No wonder then we “need” power that is outside of ourselves like a power company or gas for our cars! No wonder we are “dependant” on the outside world, verses being independent and empowered.
We are reaching a point (or have reached) where “Our power is within,” “I am equally empowered with all,” or even “We are One” are not just New Age words and ideas/ideals, but is holographically a reality right now by having the courage to embrace our own Divine-Empowered-Whole-Self in this present moment.
No one else can do this for us. No one else can save us from our own choice of feeling powerless (or having less power than someone else).
Perhaps, this is what BMH was pointing to when she was saying our “connection is broken?” In addition to the connection to our Spirit being broken, the connection to our personal power is also broken, for this is really the same thing. And for any feelings out there that say there is only one power and that is God, in a balanced Wholeness by definition an individual’s personal power automatically means everybody has power as well. For me this is what I see when I hear the word “empowerment.”
In addition to “All for one and one for all,” I add “All is one and one is all.”
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In the words of George Carlin – Let’s Get Small
Mark – the aura that you cast as you go is set by both dharma and karma. The karma is simply to do unto others …, but the dharma may be something in our lesson plan that we needed to work on in this life. So much is changing so rapidly, that we sometimes wish to step back; that should not necessarily be read as weakness or running away. I need time to think, especially when stressed.
I find Williamson’s second quote to be way more powerful than the first one – as she empowers us to be us under any circumstance that we find ourselves in. You get to be Mark, tried and true, and we would be disappointed if you tried to be Nancy or Melody or Lenny or anyone other than Mark.
So hugs and sunshine and be who Mark is! Namaste’
Hi Lenny,
Love George Carlin! It’s good to see you and your Spontaneous Evolution butterfly crop circle here. Your vote of confidence means a lot to me! Thank you very much!
In addition to hearing Brad Yates tapping for everybody “This need to feel bad,” in the Emergence Process course I just took the nature of the ego was of course explored in an attempt to have a healthier relationship with and to merge with our own Divine Self, or as the subtitle for the book states “The Shift (in identity) from Ego to Essence.” BMH often speaks about “the illusion of separation,” and how the ego wants to be separate, and how the divine self is in Wholeness and Unity, or simply is Wholeness and Unity. Barbara and her sister Patricia offered to the students the idea that our separate little egos actually want wholeness.
Even though my heart understands how a fearful little self could want love, my head (ego) was curious how the energy of separation could actually want the energy of Wholeness, because of course separation wants to be separate, that’s what it does, and egos tend to like being right and distant and fractured. At least mine does.
So the nature of these dualistic and paradoxical separate/whole energies was the reason for this blog “season.” For, not only do I see a need to be small in my own ego, but I also witness it everywhere I go.
Thanks again for your presence, Lenny! Namaste to you,
Mark
Thanks for the kindness. The ego is part of the yin/yang relationship between heart and mind. Some people call it left brain/right brain: i have learned to be in both realms differently at the same time. What this means is that the illusions of duality and time are just that, illusions.
I have been taking in moon beams the past two nights – we are coming to a point of either apogee or perigee, depending on your perspective. The ego wants to find bottom, the soul will carry us to the top, just as cream rises. The result is a real person – captured in the muddle in the middle – a highly dangerous location where balance means a whole lot of different things.
I work on the weigh and balance is a tool, not a concept. The zeroing out of things does not make them disappear – all life is dynamic and kinetic – but we hardly notice any change because of the temporal dynamics and the way we approach numbers.
As i read back – i am using big words and deep mind concepts for a sympathy that the heart finds easy – unconditional love. Heart needs no balance to weigh right and wrong; life is divine and nothing is ever wrong.
Marty Balin did a song hearts and minds – i’ll find it and post it under love. Your connection, Mark, is real and is different from what you know, flow with the flow and watch, making choices as you are asked to make them – no rush, we have all the time in the world. And this Thyme in this whirled has a few games to create a different environment of learning, for when the time comes that we are shifted far enough away from the flow of current events.
as Robert Heinlein’s Michael Valentine Smith said “Thou art God”
Clearly in a society based on the evolutionary tools of fight or flight most people have been trained from birth to find their validation outside of themselves. Unfortunately energy dissipates rather quickly when it is being projected outwards. On the other hand when an individual learns to use a process like meditation, yoga or qi gong to project their energy inwards their energy doesn’t dissipate, instead their bio-field is enhanced and a feedback loop is created that uses resonant energy to further build the bio-field.
Personally I let my ego decide which flavor of ice cream I like.
Lenny – you are a good Thyme (I’m sure you’ve never heard that one before;), I am having a good Thyme, and as a drummer these correspondences are in good Thyme. (Sorry, couldn’t resist). And I’m very happy to know that you are creating a different environment of learning in this “whirled.”
I’ve been taking moonlit walks lately so I guess I’ve been soaking up some Moonbeams myself. But I haven’t come up with poetic words like “The ego wants to find bottom, the soul will carry us to the top, just as cream rises.” I love that, because that is what it feels like. Then you say “The result is a real person – captured in the muddle in the middle – a highly dangerous location where balance means a whole lot of different things.” I don’t quite get that though. Why do you see that as a dangerous place and balance means different things?
And Warren – Such rich words! I soak in the depths to let it sink in. My version of Thou art God, that means the same thing to me, is “I am Whole,” and then “ I am Wholy,” for to me it seems that the relationship within Wholeness (part is Whole/Whole is part) is holy (Thou art Whole or Wholy).
And I’m glad to hear you say that you’d personally let your ego decide which flavor of inner or outer ice cream you’d like because that hasn’t boded too well for me, and any kind of holiness in such a sacred relationship has tended to end up, I’ll say, unholy, soiled, and less evolved. But that’s just me. The good thing is it helps motivate me to meditate more and project my energy inwards, as you intelligently say, to further build my bio-field.
Beauty, intelligence, and fun to you both!
Mark
Ah – to be your own person is not to drift into the insanity of the current, but to shift through and find the point where we can be who we are. I took the extremes without the reinterpretation of the society which sees people in either brain as extreme. They prefer television and suspended brain. (At first i wrote no brain, but no brain is a meditative state of full bliss – not terribly descriptive of society today.)
I keep my avatar extremely positive here at the shift movement; when if you read my blog, you can see that i also have a dark side, which i have been letting go. My poet, lemme howdt, seems to have achieved his goal of getting out of the social system: yet there is no here here until more people decide to just pick up their pieces and come home, as stevie’s gold dust woman reminds us.
I use biological models to explain how life works. When things get too complex, i overlay a simpler system and then tease out the message of what works and what does not work. I tend to push things hard, until something breaks – then answer the questions from a position of having experienced the moment. Muddle in the middle is the way i describe mitotic cell division – it gets soupy.
If you take a line from one extreme to the other, then bend it so that the two ends touch – you have found that you can go from one extreme to the other without every being in the middle. This is what a quantum state is. It also describes a circle – one whole.
Thanks for asking – i have trouble sometimes bringing clarity through the process of simplifying. I try not to assume anything – i am always at your service to help seek truth, in whatever form it may come. Namaste’
This conversation reminds me of this video below explaining the dimensions that I passed to a community college math teacher who had never seen it. (I revisited a year of math to prepare for grad school. I turned down my 2nd acceptance to a masters program due to magnitude of loans). From now on, I decided it is the “money-free” (not karmic-free) school of lifelong learning for me!
http://www.tenthdimension.com/medialinks.php
I appreciate your posts, Mark, and thoughts of everyone here. Speaking of moonbeam walks, you know what happened to me on the full moon? Two incredibly fragile/beautiful emerald wavy-lined moths appeared (seemingly out of nowhere) on my windowsill. Never have seen the lovelies before. : )
Hi Erin,
I liked your “Seemingly out of nowhere” comment:) Moths that came out of the Feminie. Emerald moths. I don’t think I’ve ever seen an emerald one. They’re usually earthtones.
I’m at the library now so I can’t see this good looking video. But it would let me see the page “Imagining the Tenth Dimension.” That actually causes to think about what Patricia Elsburg said in my Emergence class, something like “Imagine your best Self. Imagine what your Essence feels like.” It’s like getting out of the adult mind and getting into an innocent child mind and just pretending, “Let’s play let’s pretend being our Best Self, OK?” There, how’s that for an intellectual scientific mind?:)
Blessings Erin!
Hi Lenny – “Ah – to be your own person is not to drift into the insanity of the”…whirled. Don’t wanna get lost in the whirled! (You can tell I like that word:) During my morning meditations, or focus, or coffee with God, or whatever, I sometimes feel how I am in the middle between the weight of gravity from above and the support of the Earth below. Then feeling that love as best I can. I am in the center. I am a bridge between the earth and shy. I also sometimes like to say “I am a Sun of God in the center of my own solar system,” and then imagining being a sphere and radiating light to all my planets of God.
“If you take a line from one extreme to the other, then bend it so that the two ends touch – you have found that you can go from one extreme to the other without every being in the middle. This is what a quantum state is. It also describes a circle – one whole.” Excellent! Have you ever read or seen “A Wrinkle in Time?” There’s a scene in the Disney movie where a good and loving Guide puts an insect on one knee of her dress, then pulls together the fabric of her skirt and allows the insect to go to the other side. It was like a Disney Show-and-Tell of time travel.
Now Mr. Thyme, educate me…I feel what you are saying “This is what a quantum state is. It also describes a circle – one whole.”…but talk some more about this. I get that time is more than being linear (a circle), but how do you see this as being whole?
Thanks,
Mark
Good thing it’s Dr. Thyme – makes me feel qualified to speak on the topic. The idea of quantum is that at some point, you cannot sub-divide any smaller. The smallest thing is not the sum of any parts – it is just what it is – one.
Defining time is difficult, especially when you cannot use units of time in your definition. Time seems to be the count of passes through the origin (zero point) that a wave takes during it’s normal vibration. We use the term frequency to define a number of wave passes in a second, and have that set to the vibration pattern of cesium, as measured by NIST – the National Institute of Standards and Technology.
It doesn’t have to be that complex. Take your meditative state and follow your breath – you can slow time to a crawl. Or anticipate something that you have been looking forward to. In the opposite sense – push a deadline and in a blink – time is done and the deadline is here. Time is an illusion, there really is no time other than now.
Thyme on the other hand is a spice. Not sure if this helps or complicated things. Namaste’ Lenny
“Thyme on the other hand is a spice. Not sure if this helps or complicated things.” Well, even if it does, Dr. Thyme, I can handle it:) Or in other words, I think it helps. (It helps to be a little weird.)
OK. Got the whole whole thing. After no more subdivision and being one thing, it is whole unto itself. Interesting choice of words about the smallest thing is not the sum of the parts, because in addition to a whole being the sum of the parts (as in our Shift collaboration, or any needed social focus of energy), in Wholeness it feels to me that the a single part actually is the Whole (holographically speaking and spiritually speaking). The way I see it, in Wholeness a Whole is not the “sum” of the parts. There is no adding, no math, no space, and no time. (OK. OK. No Thyme…but wait, I like Thyme. Sometymes I like it in my tea.)
The fact that nature operates in the Fibonacci series (golden mean spiral) implies that there are two separate distinct ones. The one is the greater whole of everything, while the second one is each of us as an individual. Once we have accepted oneness in both senses, then we are ready to move up to two – rosemary and thyme in the tea. Then three, which is followed by five, eight and thirteen. These numbers are highly significant, although we really could not tell the way our society operates.
The other key is as above, so below. Things work on the grand scale by the same sets of order and chaos as they work on the local scale. Thus, we can use symmetry to simplify complexity, through the mechanism of sacred geometry. I can tell that that will require another in depth post – to review the platonic solids and the shapes that form in a moving field.
But we do have a good start and a thread that has a wealth of information for the knowledge seeker. Namaste’
I’m aware of the beautiful Fibronacci series (Phi, Golden Mean, Divine Proportion), but I’m not aware of “two separate distinct ones.” What is “ones,” series or spirals? Do you have a link or a search word where I can read more? I love “The one is the greater whole of everything, while the second one is each of us as an individual.”
I wonder if what you are saying Lenny is what I postulated on my website that the relationship between part and Whole is the Golden Mean Proportion? “Holographic Possibilities” http://www.hcsi.com/mark/webdoc10holoposs.htm
And good job, Mr. Thyme, I was actually just thinking today about “Once we have accepted oneness in both…” in seeing how people, and egos, understandably feel that it is wrong to embrace ones own power in Wholeness. It’s like saying that I have as much power as God. This is not only seen as wrong, but blasphemous. In a different time I would be burned at the state saying such a heretical thing. But it occurred to me that Wholeness contains a healthy balance of both being humble and being powerful. From this holographic perspective there is no blasphemy in that it is balanced with humility, because one is embracing both the Whole and the part, both complete Power and individual power (or even no power, powerlessness). To me, religion’s fear of power is similar to how deep down the ego really fears power. But that’s for another blog (and another Thyme:)