Shift Movement

I love Freedom and this shift, is making me FLY ! Each week, I dare myself to fly, loving/being my Whole self and everyday, I’m that much stronger. I’m so proud of me ). Many times today, I would notice myself, thinking “God, I love my life.” and, Man, I love this life.”

I’m in in huge, crocodile tears and more grateful, for my existence, than I’ve ever…ever been before. You guys, you have to understand the significance of this Shift, actualizing, into my ‘this life’. It’s collosal!

A huge part of my upbringing, was rooted, deeply, in the family tradition ‘Psycholosophy’ : the art of, philosophically, dissecting someone’s psyche. My, this life’s ‘story’, held a huge key to my poor self worth. If I ever was hurt or injured or emotionally scarred, from anything, my father, and sometimes mother, would ask me, “why do you think they would do this?” Questions of my feelings, were rarely addressed; it was normal, to me. My emotional state, didnt matter…silently, i Screamed. Eventually, my actions, held the resonance, of these ‘silent screams’.
On the surface, I learned how to ‘Be’, a me, that best represented who they were.
Inwardly and socially, the screams grew. I love that brave girl.

What was, is okay now. I realize now, that what taught me, ‘responsible compassion’, also ‘taught’ me that everything else, Minus ME, was most important…, huge wakening/realization, last year.
It was ALL ways, about someone else. Lol!

Now, I understand where the excessive concern, about what others think of me, came from.

AHHHH HAAAAAAA!!!!!

Listening to one of Lisa’s, amazingly beautiful, lectures/sermons, I heard her speak of how her dedication and service to the Divine, far outweighed any concerns, about what others think or feel, about her. YESSSSSS!

The resonance of that message, is braided with my love and (ever growing), relationship with myself, with the Divine Source of all things and with, this new, amplifying awareness, of that Divinity, within Me! Oh, the grace and beauty of Source, continually rocks me, to the core. With these unfoldings, a true SHIFT, is occuring.

Each day, I take a risk…giving my inner Quixote, a voice, a platform and an immensely colored palate. My Don, is Doing it, with such joy!

Lately, these have been giving myself, full…FULL, permission, to express my truest, deepest emotions, completely free; with my focus being, Being the Truth, of the experience. God, I show up, each day & show OUT! Today, my chest was heaving, as I expressed gratitude, with one of my mentors. The authenticity, of that moment, was a God Truth, within me…shared, Heart to Heart. IT WAS SOOOO BEAUTIFUL!

I pledge to ‘Heart speak’, at every open opportunity… This is my God self, ‘Don Quixote-ing’ ~ the fencing dance, HEART to HEART, with our God selves, showing up…showing out…BEING ME !

THANK YOU Lisa ~ thank you love, thank you light ~ thank you me ~ THANK YOU DIVINITY ~

You Source Divine (via the experiences of our lives), are So many things… Humbly, before you, repeatedly I empty the ‘cup of who I think I am’ and allow you, Divine Source, in infinitive splendor, to fill me. Each of us, are holy grails, beaconing God spirit, to release us from these ‘self-created’ identities, that we don, so often, to ‘protect us’, from being open, exposed…potentially un Loved.

All every being wants, is to be Loved. Brave, are the souls, of those who release their cups willingly (for/with all of us watching); awaiting their time to Dance with their Dons. These sacred souls, hold the light, of their truths; providing an example for all of us to emulate (each, in a new, specifically, unique way).

“What others think of me, is None of my business.”

I am pre, post and actively hastened to/with the Heart of the Divine, in service.

Oh my GOD…THANK YOU ~ THANK YOU ~ THANK YOU ~Thank you ~ LOVE ~

Infinite shift Blessings to you, to us, ALL ~

Namaste loves ~

AyAnna K.